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A Perspective Changed

By: Vanessa Harmon

Have you ever thought the safest place could be in the midst of a storm?  God’s surest protection can take the form of darkness and pain.  The safest place for a Christian can actually be in the midst of suffering, appearing to the world in pain and removed from God. In reality God has you protected us and covered us in his wings and we are unscathed to Satan.

Psalms 91:4
He will cover you with his feathers and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

In March of 2014 my husband was diagnosed with stage 4B Hodgkin’s Lymphoma Cancer. We have 4 children; Natalie, Ansleigh, Andrew, and Peyton.  This was not the first time God had me under his wings and covered by his feathers.

In 2008, I lost my first husband due to death by an addiction. At that time I had three children ages 3 and under. To the world, it looked like we were left behind but in my eyes God protected us from unseen pain. He was very near to me in my widowhood, preparing me for what was ahead. Walking with Jesus grants new perspective in the midst of what you would never choose or imagine.

In 2009, I married Jeremy but there were vows for us all, including our children. Jeremy adopted the children and in 2012 we had our sweet little Peyton.

Isaiah 60:1-4
Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you. See darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, but the Lord rises upon you. Nations will come to your light and kings to the brightness of your dawn.

Just when all seemed right and normal, we received the diagnosis of Cancer. I heard the murmurs, “How could God allow this?” In my heart I felt defeated and in my faith I felt confused. However, my true friends and mentors were there to ensure me God was still good and in control, finding me worthy to endure such a trial. My perspective had to be changed! We have to see through Gods eyes not human eyes, in the face of grave pain and wordless confusion. He protects us and grows our faith deepens through the storms of life not the blue skies.

It has been a beautiful story that I would have never chosen but would not ever change! The children have seen hundreds pray over us and felt the hands of believers pour their love on us in service and prayer. We needed to help our children understand, God would heal Daddy, whether on earth or in heaven. Believing for earth but preparing ourselves for any outcome, we walked through treatments, hospitals, and all cancer entails with resolved faith. God is the ultimate Father and Healer to me and my family. This gift brings true lasting hope, even in the midst of tears.

Isaiah 40:31
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk; and not faint.

On November 19, 2014 we received the news that Jeremy is in 100% remission! Oh the tears of joy that come when you have cried the tears of faith without sight! Praise to the good and almighty God!

We have a long journey ahead of us but we have the LOVE, PEACE, and JOY in our heart from God our Father. We are stronger as a family and more dependent in our faith because of walking IN THE MIDST OF cancer, knowing Christ is also in the midst of cancer! This is reason enough to celebrate!

To follow our journey head here: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/jeremyharmon