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Writing…

I truly believe the Lord Jesus has authored a breathing space for me in the month of April to HEAR & WRITE. Yet again, through voices and circumstances, He takes me back to Revelation 12: 5 that states, “ Write, for these things are true.” When a sentence begins with a verb, the noun is obvious. He is telling ME the verb, to write. Sarah, just express all the stories that are in you- ones I have written and ones I am continuing to chapter. There is much on my heart, in my mind, and on my life that begs to be articulated. I want to be more faithful and consistent on my blog, possibly growing the intrigue and listening ears. Blog writing, journaling, and Word processing- which avenue do I start? I dont know. I dont know the politics, process, or procedure of this next adventure. I just want to express, communicate, and share with those who will listen. I love to tell a story weaved with truth that He reveals. For many different reasons, the Lord grants me with a myriad of stories both humorous and heavy. I love telling a story... writing is one way to do that. Pictures are another way for me. Mixing the art of telling a story with painting a picture is a passion of mine. Writing as if I was talking with someone face to face and placing them in the situation I am describing is a love. However, the calling on my life is not so much to leave people with my stories as it is with His threaded throughout them. His voice echoing, laughing, stilling, and teaching through it all.

While in LA most of the April month, reading will also be consistent. I am reading The Resilient Life and A Homemade Life currently. Both so different but so great. I love the way Molly mixes words and phrases things in her “Homemade Life”. It is in theory a cookbook wrapped around her life story. I would love my books to be devotionals with Biblical nuggets through scripture packaged within my unfolding life story. So I am learning from other authors. Gordon in “The Resilient life” just leaves me wanting that backbone of courage and mental character to do what I know He is calling me to do. I am only a few chapters into both of these but they are inspiring me to act, thus this entry. Viral accountability is a unique thing that “blogging” prompts without effort. The more I write the more accountable I am to continue to write. Interesting how all this works, online. I dont know if or what people will read my musings but that is not why I am expressing really. It is as Jeremiah said, “It is a fire shut up in my bones and indeed I cannot hold it in any long”. That is why I write and express- if you read and enjoy, that is wonderful icing on an already great cake.

I am excited to pour out through words. I don't know what the finished product ( if there will ever be one) will resemble but I think for the first time I am giving myself permission to enjoy the process not just look to the finish. So here we go....

Surprising Sanctification

God uses the most unexpected things to carve His image into this piece of stone, to mirror the image of Him in the mirror in front of me. Tests, Trials, Tears, and Triumphs all mar and mold us into different images. Oh to be more like the image or reflection of Christ! To those who long to be sanctified, He will instigate that process with no assistance from us. He longs for us to be transformed from Glory to Glory as mentioned in II Cor. To behold as in a mirror the glory of our Lord in us! Wow. Do not assume how that sanctification will be packaged. It comes in all sizes and shapes. It could be in Atlanta Traffic, awful break ups, amazing job promotions, or altering friendships. Sanctification, when originated by Him, has a way of purging us inside and pressing Him outside. More of Him, less of me. So today when viewing your face in the mirror, may we thank Him for surprising sanctifying circumstances as it leads to more of His image in the mirror starring back at you. To God be all the Glory!

Reckless Restlessness

Oh how often a restlessness of heart seems to echo through me! This restless is birthed not from discontent but from hope and anticipation of God's coming activity. How blessed we are in the step by step Journey He has us on. I am overwhelmed to tears at the thought of how and who He intersects for greater glory than all I could have asked or imagined. Past friends and new faces; old relationships and ones still forming; family kin and future dreams colliding... He has a way of paralling the lives and hearts of those who seek Him. I am beyond grateful for the intersections and interruptions that have marked this year, the one past, and coming ones ahead. Thank you Divine Interrupter! His interruptions are glorious and illogical in nature, but later we will understand what He is doing as stated in John 13:7. How beautiful are the hands of my Lord and His activity on behalf of this little maiden.

25 thoughts on the 25th

25 thoughts on the 25th: mindless and meaningful.

> Is 43:18-19 Will you be aware of it?" Behold I am doing something new now." we are Too aware of what has happened that we miss what is happening. Consciously be more aware of what He is up to then what has been.

> John 14:21-23- I will love her and make Myself at home with her. The comforts a soft living room brings the outer man so His presence to our inner man.

> Eggs bacon coffee at a rattan table outside Under a canopy of green vines- nothing like a Cali morning.

> The Ivy in LA. Enough said.

> Flipping through cookbooks is a form of Inspiration.

> A good brisk jog by Starbucks and boutique windows is prayerful entertainment.

> John 16:24 "Until now you have asked for nothing in My name" ."Until now" is another way of saying "the tension of suspension". We should be asking much of Him on the tight rope heights of tension in our lives. Tension between now and not yet should be elevated up in prayer!!

> I love fall wind with summer sun.

> Business and blogging from the back porch is nice.

> The south and the west meet in good friends over fine fare.

> Sunday brunch at The Wolfs need I say more?

> Children are a form of health for an adult. They cure the sickness of selfishness.

> A lost joy and privilege is standing in the gap for someone elses plea. Try it.

> Family as friends is a gift.

> Freedom was bought don't deny it or cheapen it.

> Matt. 28:20 Emmanuel.

> Ice cold bottled water goes down easier than from a glass

> Candles burning regardless of time of day is cleansing.

> Made beds bring a since of order

> culver city- home away from home

> Skinny jeans, boots, soft worn shirt with accessories.

> The daily light and coffee to start a Monday.

> Oh how He loves us!

> Sacrifice is different than loss. Loss is involuntarily losing something regardless of value that will not return. Sacrifice is voluntarily giving up something of lesser value to gain something of greater value in return! Loss is a gap. Sacrifice is a gain.

Abraham believed God could and would done what He said. Should we? Absolutely.

Catalyst 2010

Tension is not only vital but good. Receive it and become a leader through it. Leaders are born for and in the tension. What a transcendent truth! It is more than a theme orchestrated by an event team, but it is reality. Embrace this truth and start to really minister.

Tension holds bridges together.
Tension keeps relationships developing.
Tension invites God to intersect and intervene.
Tension creates the need for vision.
Tension reduces whatever control we are tricked into believing we have.
Tension demands attention.

Tension is vital and good. Tension is God... He ordains and allows tension to occur for all that tension instigates in the life of His children. Throughout Scripture we see people in tension. We see them between armies and seas. We see them between prisons and palaces. We see them between fields and fortunes. We see them between pressure and Presence. We see them between "the now and the not yet"... Oh it is the tension between the now and not yet that engages faith for the impossible.

So accept it. Invite it. Leverage it. Tension is Good.

Community

Tonight I am privileged to have dinner with Pastor Peter Tan Chi and his wife, Deonna from the Philippines. Christ Commission Fellowship is their church. www.ccf.org.ph

God unites His people of this world for reasons beyond us. I lived in Austria during the fall of 2006 and became very close to their daughter, Carolyn. She has a passion for the Lord like few woman I have met, and I have met a lot. Carolyn stands out, heads above others, in a crowd because of how committed her heart is to the One and Only God. She and I found a commonality between our hearts as if we were separated from birth. Community was born between us and has maintained over these 4.5 years. There is nothing like unity of the spirit in the bond of peace as Eph. states.

It is not coincidence that finally I get to meet her beloved family the very same week of Catalyst, which brings them to the USA. I am excited to find commonality with them as we mention our Lord's names and wonders. I am humbled to fellowship, glean, and serve with thousands at Catalyst 2011 this week as well. I will be reporting from a suite- so keep checking for blog posts this week and facebook updates.

Community is common unity. How small the world of believers becomes when lived in light of common unity shared in a large God!

Catharsis

Autumn drive from Nashville to Atlanta.
Charlie Hall's new album.
Windows down.
Engaging conversations.
Dreaming about the future possibilities.
Writing.
Singing Celine's "A New Day has come".
Planning for Passion 2011.
Baking/Cooking of any kind.
Laughing out loud at You Tube videos.
Making a sale.
Getting a bargain from anthropology.
Cupcakes.
Homemade soup.
TGIF.
Iced Coffee.
Mercy Girl's face.
Running a couple miles.
Creating Book titles and chapters.
Beginning The Book!
Reading the Word.

All done in a day's work...

Ode to Old

Today in cleaning out my garage, my car, and my room my heart too was cleansing. Old books. Old clothes and shoes. Old journals of tales past. Old napkins with nuggets written on them. Old heart breaks recorded in notebooks. Old recipes. Old magazines. Old memories. Old misery births new ones. In the midst of the old and the long past missing, I ached for the new. New memories. New journal entries. New hope. New nuggets. New strength. New hugs. New resolutions jotted down on post its. New friends. New love. New space. New outlook. New laughs. New adventures. New things. New tears of joy. New truth written on my heart. Maybe even New perspectives on old things even.

As Solomon says, "nothing is new under the sun". But as I know God, "everything is new in the Son". Thank you for that promise when all around me smells old. You usher in newness, Lord. "Do not recall the former things for they have past; behold I am doing something new!" Replace what has been lost. Repair what has been broken. Remind me of what You can and will do. Renew what my heart deep down knows as truth. Replenish what has been emptied.

Good bye Old. Hello New.

Psalm 27

Woke up with ache in my mind and heart today after an act of obedience this week. Obedience hurts. God asks of us "faith works" that sometimes do not logically make sense in the grand scheme of the story but faith moves forward, despising the pain, and obeys anyway. As my eyes slowly opened this morning my mind immediately wants to wander into What If Land. Have you ever visited that land? It is not a place to vacation. It is not even a place worth visiting. What If Land steals joy, kills hope, and paralyzes faith that longs to move forward. I hate that land. Pain is the passport and I was headed there in my thought life today. As my mind was wandering over the border this morning Psalm 27:13 stopped me. It literally was etched in bold across my thoughts.

"I WOULD HAVE despaired unless I HAD BELIEVED that I WOULD see the Goodness of the Lord in the land of the living".

The land of the living! That is where I want to walk and have my mind centered. The Land of the living is the here and now IN Christ that brings hope, joy and peace because it is a land full of His goodness to the enlightened eye! Enlighten my eyes O Jesus. I love the past tense used: "I would have despaired", BUT DID NOT. "I had believed" long ago and still do that I WILL ( coming future) see, not just hope for, His goodness! He is good and He is for us, even when every other voice or thought screams otherwise. He is good. Taste and SEE that He is good!

Oh the word just flooded me as my eyes opened and closed this morning on that one verse.
Ps 27:13.

I made my way out of bed, a little sore all over, and walked the dogs. Every step I took I was envisioning that verse and His goodness filling my soul ( mind, will, emotions) and my life presently. Taking my thoughts captive and putting away the passport. I was not going to travel to that What If Land anymore! I asked GOD to continue echoing to me His truth for every lie that would enter.

I had an impression to check my email upon entering the house with my two sweaty dogs. What was there but an email from Passion City Church on Psalm 27! There it was IN BOLD in my mailbox: Psalm 27. When He speaks a Word, He repeats His Word. How sweet of Him! I am clinging to Him as an anchor when all else has failed. I am standing, though feeble, on His Word that resonates deep in my mind not just on the pages of paper. His Word is real to me, needed by me, and spoken to me.

"Blessed are the pure in heart for they will SEE God". Matt 5 Oh I long to see Him in the here and now of life. I do see Him actually. I see God in everything, even the pain. I see God though a little blurry through my tears. Maybe that means He is sharpening my vision and purifying my heart then! Wow. To see Him, know Him, sense Him, and hear Him instead of wandering into What If Land! Thank you Father
. Show Yourself Oh Lord again and again. Thank you for Psalm 27!

"I would have despaired had I not believed that I WOULD SEE the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living."
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