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After much work, prayer, and creativity the Logo is finished! There was a mini reveal at Est.Her in January. Thank you so much to Caitlin for bringing a vision to life. I cannot wait to take the Logo and use it on our future materials, studies, journals, and website. The blog will be going through a revamp as well. Thank you for journeying with me and Establish Her! May our roots go downward and our fruit upward!

25 thoughts on the 25th

25 thoughts on the 25th: mindless and meaningful.

> Is 43:18-19 Will you be aware of it?" Behold I am doing something new now." we are Too aware of what has happened that we miss what is happening. Consciously be more aware of what He is up to then what has been.

> John 14:21-23- I will love her and make Myself at home with her. The comforts a soft living room brings the outer man so His presence to our inner man.

> Eggs bacon coffee at a rattan table outside Under a canopy of green vines- nothing like a Cali morning.

> The Ivy in LA. Enough said.

> Flipping through cookbooks is a form of Inspiration.

> A good brisk jog by Starbucks and boutique windows is prayerful entertainment.

> John 16:24 "Until now you have asked for nothing in My name" ."Until now" is another way of saying "the tension of suspension". We should be asking much of Him on the tight rope heights of tension in our lives. Tension between now and not yet should be elevated up in prayer!!

> I love fall wind with summer sun.

> Business and blogging from the back porch is nice.

> The south and the west meet in good friends over fine fare.

> Sunday brunch at The Wolfs need I say more?

> Children are a form of health for an adult. They cure the sickness of selfishness.

> A lost joy and privilege is standing in the gap for someone elses plea. Try it.

> Family as friends is a gift.

> Freedom was bought don't deny it or cheapen it.

> Matt. 28:20 Emmanuel.

> Ice cold bottled water goes down easier than from a glass

> Candles burning regardless of time of day is cleansing.

> Made beds bring a since of order

> culver city- home away from home

> Skinny jeans, boots, soft worn shirt with accessories.

> The daily light and coffee to start a Monday.

> Oh how He loves us!

> Sacrifice is different than loss. Loss is involuntarily losing something regardless of value that will not return. Sacrifice is voluntarily giving up something of lesser value to gain something of greater value in return! Loss is a gap. Sacrifice is a gain.

Abraham believed God could and would done what He said. Should we? Absolutely.

Catalyst 2010

Tension is not only vital but good. Receive it and become a leader through it. Leaders are born for and in the tension. What a transcendent truth! It is more than a theme orchestrated by an event team, but it is reality. Embrace this truth and start to really minister.

Tension holds bridges together.
Tension keeps relationships developing.
Tension invites God to intersect and intervene.
Tension creates the need for vision.
Tension reduces whatever control we are tricked into believing we have.
Tension demands attention.

Tension is vital and good. Tension is God... He ordains and allows tension to occur for all that tension instigates in the life of His children. Throughout Scripture we see people in tension. We see them between armies and seas. We see them between prisons and palaces. We see them between fields and fortunes. We see them between pressure and Presence. We see them between "the now and the not yet"... Oh it is the tension between the now and not yet that engages faith for the impossible.

So accept it. Invite it. Leverage it. Tension is Good.


Tonight I am privileged to have dinner with Pastor Peter Tan Chi and his wife, Deonna from the Philippines. Christ Commission Fellowship is their church.

God unites His people of this world for reasons beyond us. I lived in Austria during the fall of 2006 and became very close to their daughter, Carolyn. She has a passion for the Lord like few woman I have met, and I have met a lot. Carolyn stands out, heads above others, in a crowd because of how committed her heart is to the One and Only God. She and I found a commonality between our hearts as if we were separated from birth. Community was born between us and has maintained over these 4.5 years. There is nothing like unity of the spirit in the bond of peace as Eph. states.

It is not coincidence that finally I get to meet her beloved family the very same week of Catalyst, which brings them to the USA. I am excited to find commonality with them as we mention our Lord's names and wonders. I am humbled to fellowship, glean, and serve with thousands at Catalyst 2011 this week as well. I will be reporting from a suite- so keep checking for blog posts this week and facebook updates.

Community is common unity. How small the world of believers becomes when lived in light of common unity shared in a large God!


Autumn drive from Nashville to Atlanta.
Charlie Hall's new album.
Windows down.
Engaging conversations.
Dreaming about the future possibilities.
Singing Celine's "A New Day has come".
Planning for Passion 2011.
Baking/Cooking of any kind.
Laughing out loud at You Tube videos.
Making a sale.
Getting a bargain from anthropology.
Homemade soup.
Iced Coffee.
Mercy Girl's face.
Running a couple miles.
Creating Book titles and chapters.
Beginning The Book!
Reading the Word.

All done in a day's work...


Praying through Establish Her's next steps on this pathway! Here is some of the ideas and actions mentioned today at Caribou Coffee. Please pray through the fruition of these things as we step into birthing this ministry the way God designed.

Writing more and consistently.
Beginning to narrow down my journals into chapter titles.
Logo creativity sessions.
Marketing materials.
Record next speaking engagement for circulation. you tube?
Organize a preliminary board of brains and hearts.
Legal status.
Website development.
Put mini Bible studies already done together in a published format.
Blog consistency and word of mouth.
Create Establish Her facebook account.
Deadline for some of these things is by Nov 12.
Prayer unceasing!

Ode to Old

Today in cleaning out my garage, my car, and my room my heart too was cleansing. Old books. Old clothes and shoes. Old journals of tales past. Old napkins with nuggets written on them. Old heart breaks recorded in notebooks. Old recipes. Old magazines. Old memories. Old misery births new ones. In the midst of the old and the long past missing, I ached for the new. New memories. New journal entries. New hope. New nuggets. New strength. New hugs. New resolutions jotted down on post its. New friends. New love. New space. New outlook. New laughs. New adventures. New things. New tears of joy. New truth written on my heart. Maybe even New perspectives on old things even.

As Solomon says, "nothing is new under the sun". But as I know God, "everything is new in the Son". Thank you for that promise when all around me smells old. You usher in newness, Lord. "Do not recall the former things for they have past; behold I am doing something new!" Replace what has been lost. Repair what has been broken. Remind me of what You can and will do. Renew what my heart deep down knows as truth. Replenish what has been emptied.

Good bye Old. Hello New.


In Gen 16-21, Jehovah deals with Sarah on the proper waiting posture for a promise given by Him. Sarai had a promise from God concerning a son. In fact she had an audible voice speaking that promise to her and her husband. Yet she laughed in mockery and doubted in waiting. She then went into action after God seemed to fail His Word by hatching Operation Hagar. When God created a Gap of waiting on Him to fulfill His Word, she stepped into the Gap and secured the promised son on her own. Of course this was a terrible mistake. When we step into the Gap God creates, even if it is good and innocent, it will sour in our hands. Operation Hagar went south quickly and Sarai was provoked to great pain as she saw Hagar pregnant. She still had to wait another 14 years before the promised made by God was fulfilled by Him alone through impossible miraculous means and Isaac was born. God always has the last Laugh! Isaac means laughter. Sarai's name changed to Sarah and her laughed went to a giggle at God's ability to make and KEEP a Promise apart from her plans or posture.

Hannah was also barren in I Samuel 1. The Lord had actually closed her womb for the coming glory He would receive when she asked of Him her desire and He granted it to her. In contrast to Sarah, when Hannah was provoked by the aching pain of longing for a son she took her oppressed spirit to the Lord. She did not step into action; She stepped into fervent prayer. She cried out her desire, reminding God of her longing for a son. Eli thought was was drunk because of the wordless groaning he saw from this woman on her knees. She stood her ground and explained that there was no one else she could go to with her sad face and broken spirit than the Lord. Eli removed the foot from his mouth and realized the grand faith of this beautiful woman of God.

Eli said " Go in peace and may God of Israel grant your petition that you have asked of Him." I Sam. 1:17 With a barren womb and the same provoking circumstances still, Hannah rejoiced, knowing she would have her request. Her face was no longer sad and she actually went and ATE! I love the Bible. It is hilarious. She had lost her appetite and once her posture of pain became one of prayerful petition and peace, she rose and ate joyfully. She knew who had heard her and what He was going to give her.

Sure enough, God remembered Hannah and gave her a son. Samuel means "Because I asked him of the Lord". Wow! Instead of making her own plan, sitting in her own pity, or allowing her pain to paralyze her... she got into the posture of true prayer! She presented her petition to the Living God who hears. She wept bitterly but then rejoiced endlessly.

Oh to have a Hannah heart more than a Sarah laugh. To run into His presence when the pain of a promised yet fulfilled aches deep within my heart. To groan out my heart to Him even if words cannot express the longing. To then get up off my knees, knowing He has heard my supplication and answered me even when circumstances have yet to shift. Wow! What faith. What posture. What a faithful God!

He is the God of Sarai, Hannah, Ruth, Esther, Rahab, Deborah, and Sarah Ott. He is faithful to His word, watching over His promise to fulfill it says Jer 1:12. He knows my heart, my need, my longing and my pain. Thank you Lord for remembering Hannah and revealing such truth in these two women.... Remember me.

Psalm 27

Woke up with ache in my mind and heart today after an act of obedience this week. Obedience hurts. God asks of us "faith works" that sometimes do not logically make sense in the grand scheme of the story but faith moves forward, despising the pain, and obeys anyway. As my eyes slowly opened this morning my mind immediately wants to wander into What If Land. Have you ever visited that land? It is not a place to vacation. It is not even a place worth visiting. What If Land steals joy, kills hope, and paralyzes faith that longs to move forward. I hate that land. Pain is the passport and I was headed there in my thought life today. As my mind was wandering over the border this morning Psalm 27:13 stopped me. It literally was etched in bold across my thoughts.

"I WOULD HAVE despaired unless I HAD BELIEVED that I WOULD see the Goodness of the Lord in the land of the living".

The land of the living! That is where I want to walk and have my mind centered. The Land of the living is the here and now IN Christ that brings hope, joy and peace because it is a land full of His goodness to the enlightened eye! Enlighten my eyes O Jesus. I love the past tense used: "I would have despaired", BUT DID NOT. "I had believed" long ago and still do that I WILL ( coming future) see, not just hope for, His goodness! He is good and He is for us, even when every other voice or thought screams otherwise. He is good. Taste and SEE that He is good!

Oh the word just flooded me as my eyes opened and closed this morning on that one verse.
Ps 27:13.

I made my way out of bed, a little sore all over, and walked the dogs. Every step I took I was envisioning that verse and His goodness filling my soul ( mind, will, emotions) and my life presently. Taking my thoughts captive and putting away the passport. I was not going to travel to that What If Land anymore! I asked GOD to continue echoing to me His truth for every lie that would enter.

I had an impression to check my email upon entering the house with my two sweaty dogs. What was there but an email from Passion City Church on Psalm 27! There it was IN BOLD in my mailbox: Psalm 27. When He speaks a Word, He repeats His Word. How sweet of Him! I am clinging to Him as an anchor when all else has failed. I am standing, though feeble, on His Word that resonates deep in my mind not just on the pages of paper. His Word is real to me, needed by me, and spoken to me.

"Blessed are the pure in heart for they will SEE God". Matt 5 Oh I long to see Him in the here and now of life. I do see Him actually. I see God in everything, even the pain. I see God though a little blurry through my tears. Maybe that means He is sharpening my vision and purifying my heart then! Wow. To see Him, know Him, sense Him, and hear Him instead of wandering into What If Land! Thank you Father
. Show Yourself Oh Lord again and again. Thank you for Psalm 27!

"I would have despaired had I not believed that I WOULD SEE the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living."


Establish: to found, institute, build or bring into being on a firm and stable basis; to install or settle into a position; to show to be valid or true; prove; to cause to be accepted or recognized; to enact, appoint, and ordain for permanence; fix unalterably.

I Peter 5:10 says that after we suffer for a little while, Christ will Himself, do four things. He will perfect, confirm, strengthen, and establish us. There is no amount of men, money, madness, materialism, or memories that can do these things but God and God alone. He begins the process of the Four with suffering. Suffering, brokenness, wounds, pain and whatever other word you deem similar, is the catalyst to the ushering in of His action. His action comes in four seasons according to this verse; perfecting; confirming; strengthening; establishing.

Oh that we were women who have entered into the fellowship of His sufferings as stated in Phil 3. Oh that we were women who live in and out of His applause alone.
Oh that we were women who saw our need and Him meeting it.
Oh that we were women who personified Christ to this world through the doxology of our lives.
Oh that we were women who He is perfecting, confirming, strengthening, and establishing.

I believe we are these women. We have a divine invitation to partner in Christ Likeness through the scars of suffering. We have the privilege to be perfected in identity by Christ alone. We have the promise to be confirmed in our callings and defined for our purposes in life. We have His strength to rely on for the fulfillment of every role, responsibility, and relationship we condone. We have the assurance that He will establish us in Him more and more as the years go by. What a hope!

It is an adventure to be a woman. Even more so a woman not only of God but found hidden in Him.

Lets begin a conversation together... I would love to know words you identify with "establish". What do you think it looks like for establishment to take place more in your life?
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