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September 2010


Praying through Establish Her's next steps on this pathway! Here is some of the ideas and actions mentioned today at Caribou Coffee. Please pray through the fruition of these things as we step into birthing this ministry the way God designed.

Writing more and consistently.
Beginning to narrow down my journals into chapter titles.
Logo creativity sessions.
Marketing materials.
Record next speaking engagement for circulation. you tube?
Organize a preliminary board of brains and hearts.
Legal status.
Website development.
Put mini Bible studies already done together in a published format.
Blog consistency and word of mouth.
Create Establish Her facebook account.
Deadline for some of these things is by Nov 12.
Prayer unceasing!

Ode to Old

Today in cleaning out my garage, my car, and my room my heart too was cleansing. Old books. Old clothes and shoes. Old journals of tales past. Old napkins with nuggets written on them. Old heart breaks recorded in notebooks. Old recipes. Old magazines. Old memories. Old misery births new ones. In the midst of the old and the long past missing, I ached for the new. New memories. New journal entries. New hope. New nuggets. New strength. New hugs. New resolutions jotted down on post its. New friends. New love. New space. New outlook. New laughs. New adventures. New things. New tears of joy. New truth written on my heart. Maybe even New perspectives on old things even.

As Solomon says, "nothing is new under the sun". But as I know God, "everything is new in the Son". Thank you for that promise when all around me smells old. You usher in newness, Lord. "Do not recall the former things for they have past; behold I am doing something new!" Replace what has been lost. Repair what has been broken. Remind me of what You can and will do. Renew what my heart deep down knows as truth. Replenish what has been emptied.

Good bye Old. Hello New.


In Gen 16-21, Jehovah deals with Sarah on the proper waiting posture for a promise given by Him. Sarai had a promise from God concerning a son. In fact she had an audible voice speaking that promise to her and her husband. Yet she laughed in mockery and doubted in waiting. She then went into action after God seemed to fail His Word by hatching Operation Hagar. When God created a Gap of waiting on Him to fulfill His Word, she stepped into the Gap and secured the promised son on her own. Of course this was a terrible mistake. When we step into the Gap God creates, even if it is good and innocent, it will sour in our hands. Operation Hagar went south quickly and Sarai was provoked to great pain as she saw Hagar pregnant. She still had to wait another 14 years before the promised made by God was fulfilled by Him alone through impossible miraculous means and Isaac was born. God always has the last Laugh! Isaac means laughter. Sarai's name changed to Sarah and her laughed went to a giggle at God's ability to make and KEEP a Promise apart from her plans or posture.

Hannah was also barren in I Samuel 1. The Lord had actually closed her womb for the coming glory He would receive when she asked of Him her desire and He granted it to her. In contrast to Sarah, when Hannah was provoked by the aching pain of longing for a son she took her oppressed spirit to the Lord. She did not step into action; She stepped into fervent prayer. She cried out her desire, reminding God of her longing for a son. Eli thought was was drunk because of the wordless groaning he saw from this woman on her knees. She stood her ground and explained that there was no one else she could go to with her sad face and broken spirit than the Lord. Eli removed the foot from his mouth and realized the grand faith of this beautiful woman of God.

Eli said " Go in peace and may God of Israel grant your petition that you have asked of Him." I Sam. 1:17 With a barren womb and the same provoking circumstances still, Hannah rejoiced, knowing she would have her request. Her face was no longer sad and she actually went and ATE! I love the Bible. It is hilarious. She had lost her appetite and once her posture of pain became one of prayerful petition and peace, she rose and ate joyfully. She knew who had heard her and what He was going to give her.

Sure enough, God remembered Hannah and gave her a son. Samuel means "Because I asked him of the Lord". Wow! Instead of making her own plan, sitting in her own pity, or allowing her pain to paralyze her... she got into the posture of true prayer! She presented her petition to the Living God who hears. She wept bitterly but then rejoiced endlessly.

Oh to have a Hannah heart more than a Sarah laugh. To run into His presence when the pain of a promised yet fulfilled aches deep within my heart. To groan out my heart to Him even if words cannot express the longing. To then get up off my knees, knowing He has heard my supplication and answered me even when circumstances have yet to shift. Wow! What faith. What posture. What a faithful God!

He is the God of Sarai, Hannah, Ruth, Esther, Rahab, Deborah, and Sarah Ott. He is faithful to His word, watching over His promise to fulfill it says Jer 1:12. He knows my heart, my need, my longing and my pain. Thank you Lord for remembering Hannah and revealing such truth in these two women.... Remember me.

Psalm 27

Woke up with ache in my mind and heart today after an act of obedience this week. Obedience hurts. God asks of us "faith works" that sometimes do not logically make sense in the grand scheme of the story but faith moves forward, despising the pain, and obeys anyway. As my eyes slowly opened this morning my mind immediately wants to wander into What If Land. Have you ever visited that land? It is not a place to vacation. It is not even a place worth visiting. What If Land steals joy, kills hope, and paralyzes faith that longs to move forward. I hate that land. Pain is the passport and I was headed there in my thought life today. As my mind was wandering over the border this morning Psalm 27:13 stopped me. It literally was etched in bold across my thoughts.

"I WOULD HAVE despaired unless I HAD BELIEVED that I WOULD see the Goodness of the Lord in the land of the living".

The land of the living! That is where I want to walk and have my mind centered. The Land of the living is the here and now IN Christ that brings hope, joy and peace because it is a land full of His goodness to the enlightened eye! Enlighten my eyes O Jesus. I love the past tense used: "I would have despaired", BUT DID NOT. "I had believed" long ago and still do that I WILL ( coming future) see, not just hope for, His goodness! He is good and He is for us, even when every other voice or thought screams otherwise. He is good. Taste and SEE that He is good!

Oh the word just flooded me as my eyes opened and closed this morning on that one verse.
Ps 27:13.

I made my way out of bed, a little sore all over, and walked the dogs. Every step I took I was envisioning that verse and His goodness filling my soul ( mind, will, emotions) and my life presently. Taking my thoughts captive and putting away the passport. I was not going to travel to that What If Land anymore! I asked GOD to continue echoing to me His truth for every lie that would enter.

I had an impression to check my email upon entering the house with my two sweaty dogs. What was there but an email from Passion City Church on Psalm 27! There it was IN BOLD in my mailbox: Psalm 27. When He speaks a Word, He repeats His Word. How sweet of Him! I am clinging to Him as an anchor when all else has failed. I am standing, though feeble, on His Word that resonates deep in my mind not just on the pages of paper. His Word is real to me, needed by me, and spoken to me.

"Blessed are the pure in heart for they will SEE God". Matt 5 Oh I long to see Him in the here and now of life. I do see Him actually. I see God in everything, even the pain. I see God though a little blurry through my tears. Maybe that means He is sharpening my vision and purifying my heart then! Wow. To see Him, know Him, sense Him, and hear Him instead of wandering into What If Land! Thank you Father
. Show Yourself Oh Lord again and again. Thank you for Psalm 27!

"I would have despaired had I not believed that I WOULD SEE the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living."